FALLS

ˈˈwɔːtəfɔːl/

noun

1. a cascade of water falling from a height, formed when a river or stream flows over a precipice or steep incline.
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   Just one of my absolute all time favourites from Tauranga, New Zealand. Y'all better check it out. More content coming soon.

FAREWELL

fɛːˈwɛl/

  

fɛːˈwɛl/ An expression for good wishes on parting. There’s something bittersweet about having to say goodbye to those you’ve only met for a few days and whom you’ve only exchanged conversations with a few times. I do miss our laughs.

You could only imagine the dread I had felt when I arrived back onshore to Sydney. It isn’t so much the reality of the ends of your travel but it’s the HSC pain-in-the arse, excuse my language, that’s believed to be a significant section of a student’s life. For me, it’s just three more terms of endless all-nighters and Paper 1’s ready to be tackled or the continuous research on the communal behaviour of distrust during the Chinese Cultural Revolution. But despite it all, I still feel the need to unveil the hidden beauty of our world. In simpler terms, it’s the feeling of wanderlust. It's that sentiment that has been embedded within the interior. Surely someday (hopefully after the HSC) I will have that opportunity to slowly cherish these feelings that are encased. 

I’m a dreamer.

P.S;

For some time now I’ve been dedicating time into creating a template for this website. It’s not the best but it will have to suffice. I’ve grown weary of it. I’m planning to create and showcase more content on it along with upcoming editorial shoots of my beloved. Stay in touch maybe?

GLOBAL CITIZEN FESTIVAL

I think what I enjoyed most about these holidays was my proactive attitude towards taking open opportunities and meeting so many different people who are so passionate about what they want to do. We are the future generation, the generation who will make great contributions to the world, who will create innovative and inventive technological advancements for the better. These passionate students who are mentally stressed about the upcoming HSC will be leaders. Leaders who will guide the young ones. We have become more aware of things and our surrounding environment and hopefully more supportive of the different global issues that need extra attention.

Actually, I'm currently watching the live performance of the Global Citizen Festival and I'm super inspired by Malala, who not only encourages world peace but promotes education in all women and children alike. Our experiences and learning opportunities are what heaps us grow and become better people, more compassionate people, who can help the world to become a better place.

Equality in races, the abolishment of poverty and granting of free, compulsory education can be done. We set goals, we do our part, we help, we can do this. It's not impossible. It will take time but we will surely get there together.

You. Me. Together.

MILITARISTIC BLACK WIDOW

Outfit from top to bottom | Top: City Beach | Jacket: Vintage (fathers) | Pants: Target | Shoes: Wittner's

Black. More black. Black like my soul.

Sydney has had some crazy weather these past days. It's either pouring rain or the growing summer heat. For an outfit that fits perfectly for such bipolar weather, I decided to pair a knitted crop top and some cheap, good looking and comfortable pants from Target (not quite harem pants), along with a pair of leather heels. The parka is my fathers and it's the most comfortable item ever.

#MBFF SYDNEY

Volunteering definitely has it's perks. 

And I honestly think that it's definitely been a great one-night experience. My team was so supportive, people were so kind and understanding that it continued to motivate me to pursue a side-career in fashion design or something similar within the industry. 

If I were to be offered an opportunity to volunteer again, I would take it. No doubt about it. I was given the opportunity to work in front house which included ushering and constantly communicating with my team and the consumers. It has enhanced my confidence and definitely made me a more efficient team member. 

In working with the front house management, I was also granted to watch two of the three shows that were being exhibited on Saturday night; Australian Luxe and Red Carpet Runway.

Up above are some of the pictures I had taken on the Red Carpet Runway but I was still fairly new to the front house shift that I hadn't managed to take any on the Australian Luxe Runway. 

Still amazing though.

THOUGHTS

Are we truly free to express our individuality? Our emotions, our heartaches and pains? Or are we hindered by the inability to do so?

I apologise if you’re looking for an answer because honestly, I don’t have one. My philosophical skills are no match in comparison to the internet. But I can assure you that we are beings of great possibilities. We are an endless spectrum of cells that are fused as one. Or you could say that we are white, blank canvases waiting to be painted on, to be molded into something perfectly flawed. Yes, we are flawed, but who’s to say who isn’t? I found myself writing this whilst I studied the detrimental effects of jealously in the transcendent play, Othello. English is a pain. But so is life, and so often do we find ourselves caught up in tangled webs of impediments. How do we know when one should give up? The truth is, never.

Why? Because life is the mistakes and the wounds one creates. Life is the cries on the shoulders and showered kisses of faith. Our individualities will alter whilst we embark on this self-venture whether together or by one’s self but never should we lose sight of our importance.

I think I got carried away…maybe just a little. 

FLY HIGH

Outfit details (from top to bottom) | Top: Target (it was on the sales rack!) | Bottom: ASOS (thank you to Chenchen for this babe!) | Shoes: Miss Shop Myer

Photography credit: Cindy (@cinderburg on instagram)

It's almost the same outfit...but not quite. The top is different and is one of my absolute faves. Target, you do yourself great justice.

This whole photo-shoot, with the last one combined, are my absolute favourites. Not because my style has changed dramatically and I feel more comfortable with the colours but because it was such a nice day and it really did feel as if Spring had come early.

Thank the heavens above.

FREE FALL

Outfit details | Top: TEMT | Pants: ASOS | Shoes: Miss Shop
Photography credit: Cindy Chen (little sister)
A place I call sanctuary is somewhere among those sapphire skies.

A therapeutic Sunday! I've been doing some studying but at the same time, I'm making commitments to dedicating time into my blog because it's something I really do take seriously and also it's a place where I can openly express my creative side. That being said, I will be updating some artworks here and the blog is still under construction so continue to stay updated for more! 
Today actually felt somewhat like Spring and I'm so thankful for good weather! I will be updating more whilst completing my tutor homework, so stay on the lookout chicka!
Stay blessed...for now! :)

NOSTALGIA

I must say, Nostalgia is a beautiful thing.

Throughout the course of my life, I've being fond of memories, not so much the bad ones but the good ones...yes, the good ones indeed. 

I've learnt to be more resilient among the troubled waves of anxiety and I've learnt that the upcoming assessments and examinations will not determine me as a person. For who I am or what I can do. Sometimes I feel the need to compare myself to others because they have achieved so much in such a short amount of time. I feel as if I'm not putting enough effort or I'm not doing my absolute best when really I'm trying my hardest. It's troubling and in other words, I feel lost. Just a little and it scares me. But that's why nostalgia is a beautiful thing, because in the course of your life, you will feel comforted by the beauty of old moments that may perhaps guide you somewhere, anywhere.

As I probably stated before, I will do things my way, I will pace things out, bit by bit, deconstruct it and slowly walk down that long, winding road.

I'm confident, a little fearful of it, but I think I can manage. Just a little. 

I'm not going to write much because I'm absolutely sleep deprived but I shall return with exciting updates!

Stay blessed lovelies!

'VIVID' LA VIDA

Lights. Cameras. Action.

Three words, overly used (quite an understatement) and three that might be the perfect definition of what VIVID was truly like in the metropolis city of Sydney.

I'm not one for the selfies stick and hand-held iPad's littering the view of the lights blazing in the far distance but my luck seemed to have found its way when I stumbled into a small (unfortunately) closed cafe during one of the very few nights up in the higher levels of the Cockle Bay Wharf. Empty and completely unoccupied by no strangers...except for a few professional DSLR users I might state. 
Strike.

It was ten minutes of my lifetime watching lights dance and fireworks setting lite. Music blasted with the lights mimicking the beat.

As Robin Williams  himself once quoted...Carpe Diem.

Because life truly is short and good moments truly seize the day.

WORK HARD

Work hard. Jesus, I probably sound like your teacher or mum or dad or just anyone really but it's true. I've received my Semester 1 report back and all I can say is that I'm super proud of myself for being able to have reached so far in my academic areas. To some, it's not much (it's probably horribly crap) but to me it's an amazing achievement.

I was never born intelligent, there are some who are but that's really rare. We will always be different, some will adapt quicker, some will learn and understand concepts in the speed of light but some will take time and that 'some' is me.

Out of my family, I'm the slowest, the one who cried when she couldn't understand things even after ten gazillions of repetitive explanations. 

So I've tried my best, honestly, it was never easy. I stay up few extra hours to finish extra notes, to encapsulate more details in my homework and that was hard because being sleep deprived was horrifying. So I did my best.

Then came the appearance slash body issue. I realised in the end of last year that I was getting super heavy and parts of my body was gaining those extra unnecessary fat. I became worried as my friends were all rather fit while I was left behind with weight issues. So I went to the gym, not everyday but most of them and I gained undying support from my sister who was super supportive in what I was doing. Thank you Carmen. I've lost around 6-7 kilogrammes since mid October 2014 and that's not much but it made a difference because I feel lighter and fitter than before. But I still need to continue because I want to look fit, I want to wear nice clothes with confidence, I want to achieve the so called 'body goals' that's becoming heaps mainstream. I want to be happy for myself because I've worked hard for it and I want to see results and share them with you all and hope to motivate and inspire others too!

So this is really all just blabbering but I want to continue working to my initial goals that I've had set out this year as my new year resolutions. Those results in school? Yeah, I want to continue because I want that 99.95 ATAR. And those body issues? I want to look sexy as hell. I want to be able to gain independence, I want to get my L's so I can start learning how to drive. I want to be getting a stable income. To majority of the teen population in the world today and my own community, that's probably all achieved since their beginning of their High School life. But then again, I'm slow and I want to do it at my own pace and experience it my own ways. I'm me, I'm different and I want to stay that way.

So work hard my beautifuls, because you will be rewarded. No doubt.

ABOUT ME | ANXIETY

Fear not, I deal with the same issue too. I know I haven't been 'professionally' diagnosed with it but the feeling of been caged in this deep swarm of negativity and the chronic worrying is something that happens every now and then. There are probably no words that could describe the kind of pain Anxiety makes you go through. Trust me, we can get through this together because there have been really tough periods for me and I managed to get through this. So can you!

In a few weeks time, after a hectic schedule, I will be making up a list of things that will help you rid anxiety or lessen the effect it has on you because it works for me! Hopefully it will work for you beautifuls too!

But in the mean time, Fashion updates will be coming up!

Stay blessed AND stay, stay and stay positive! Mwah Mwah!

City of Boats - Hobart

School has been absolutely horrid and god, kill me at the thought of Trigonometry because that stuff is insane. But back to blogging before I die from absolute terror.

Hobart was a beautiful city, blue skies, deep blue toned oceans and primary coloured-boats.

It would have been better if our days were spent at the Saturday and Sunday markets but sadly time didn't allow. However my family and I were to trek our way to Mount Wellington so that was a nice trip!

Next trip coming up and also some fashion inspo and updates while I'm at it!